2 Samuel 11:1-15
As you live, and as your soul lives, I will not do such a thing. |
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| Miracles | ||
This version from John is written in ways to remind people of God feeding the Israelites in the wilderness with manna and with quail; and of Elisha taking a few barley loaves given to him by a young boy and multiplying them to feed one-hundred people with some leftover. The unspoken message here for the Gospel writers is that their Jesus was bigger and more powerful than Moses or Elisha. They’re not just telling stories. They’re writing to persuade and convince!
The Gospel writer of John sets this feeding story just before Passover. Passover is the most important celebration – the annual remembrance that what God wants for God’s children is not enslavement but freedom. Do you remember what you do at Passover to celebrate what God wants for God’s children? You tell stories and you eat! It’s hardly a celebration if you don’t have food. But the ancient prayers of the Passover celebration also invoke the spirit of generosity – out of mindfulness of the hardships that the Jewish people have suffered and the cruelty they’ve endured. An English translation of an opening prayer of Passover goes like this: “To all who are in need we therefore say: We know your suffering and we want to help you in your need. To all who are hungry we say: Come and join us in our abundance.” For me, that is the story of our Eucharist too, (when it’s told properly). That’s what I think the writer of this Gospel wanted the hearers to be thinking of when this story got told – the abundance of being in relationship with God.
The story goes that Jesus looked up and saw a large crowd coming toward him. At this point we don’t know just how large until a little later on – but a large crowd nevertheless is coming up the mountain. And it’s not a paved road either. A large crowd is clambering clumsily to the place where they think Jesus is. Just prior to this part of the Gospel, we learn that a large crowd has actually been following Jesus for some time now. It says that they kept tracking him down because they had seen and heard about Jesus’ healing power. So we can imagine that in this large crowd are a lot of sick people. We can imagine that some are in really bad shape if they’re willing to go up this mountain. These must not be illnesses that a day or two of bed rest would cure.
They’re coming up the mountain – mountains are a confirmed place to commune with God in Jesus’ time (still are) – but mountains were not places for recreational picnics. And they were hungry. It’s hard to celebrate your freedom, your special-ness to God, when you are hungry. We know that from the Exodus stories of the wilderness and we know it from our own stories. When we are hungry, our minds are so preoccupied that it’s hard enough to function, let alone celebrate.
And this crowd, coming up the mountain must have looked hungry, because Jesus said to Philip, “Where are we going to get enough bread to feed this mob?” Actually Jesus is quoting directly from Moses’ wilderness question to God. Whether or not Philip notices the quote, Philip is a realist and he doesn’t mind telling Jesus that there’s just no way that they can solve the problem of this crowd’s hunger. Philip basically says, “we can’t afford it…we don’t have the money.”
Then Andrew chimes in: “There’s a child here who has five barley loaves and two fish.” (This is a child who has just enough food for himself for this journey – no more, no less – a sensible amount for a day trip.) Then Andrew realizes the absurdity of what he’s just said and adds, “But what are they among so many people?” I can imagine how he felt – how many times I have had a great idea that idea that immediately sounds foolishly impossible as soon as it’s out of my mouth. But Jesus doesn’t seem to mind. In fact, Jesus doesn’t seem to think that the idea is so foolish.
Jesus says, “Make the people sit down.” Now this always makes
me smile. And as I said last week, I think it might be the biggest miracle
in this story. Get 5000 hungry people to sit down when it’s clear
that there is not enough food? I don’t know about you but I find
it hard to get hungry members of my own family to sit down for something
to eat. Who knows how they got them to sit down or how long that took.
They sat down. They were hungry. They were sick. Surely they were dirty
– there’s no mention of a place to wash. They were a mess.
Then Jesus took the bread, and when he had given thanks, he gave it to
them, with the fish, as much as they wanted. As much as they wanted! Not
only that, but there was a lot left over.
What happened and what didn’t happen or how it happened are questions that I think are all completely beside the point that this story is trying to make. It’s a story that is saying something about Jesus and about God’s work in and through Jesus. What this story tells me about Jesus, is this: Jesus needs to use whatever is available to feed hungry people. Here we learn that one small child with an impossibly small amount of food could provide the stuff – the catalyst, if you will, for a great feast. A colleague tells this story: “A few years ago, some friends [from out of town] were in [the]… city. They drove by a park that had numerous homeless people. Their young daughter, around 4 years old, at the time, asked about the people. Answered the mother: ‘They are homeless. They have no place to sleep. They have nothing to eat.’ ‘Well, why don't we feed them?’ asked the daughter in all her innocence. ‘Why don't we feed them?’”
In the face of overwhelming hunger, Jesus needs what we have, not what we can spare. Jesus doesn’t perform this sign with the small child’s leftovers, or say to the child, “can I borrow a loaf or two until we get back to town?” Jesus needs what you have and what I have. Jesus demonstrates again and again that God desires our everything. Over and over Jesus demonstrates that no “everything” -- not even a small child’s everything is too small for God’s purposes.
In all of the Gospels, the night time storm at sea follows the feeding story. Here again the miracle is not what you might think. The sea became rough because a strong wind was blowing, and Jesus comes to them across the sea. But Jesus doesn’t calm the seas or stop the wind. Jesus, in John’s story walks on water – and that’s not the miracle either, according to John. The miracle in this story is what Jesus says [in transliterated Greek], Ego eimi mey phobeisthe. It is the divine revelation. Rather than translating ego eimi as, “It is I,” it should be “I AM.” And then you would get it right away. That’s the revelation of the divine to Moses in the burning bush. And mey phobeisthe “do not be afraid” is what the Holy One says whenever the Holy One appears in the Hebrew Bible. “Do not be afraid” is one of the essential ingredients of a theophany which is a fancy word for divine manifestation. Indeed, Jesus is said to have said “do not be afraid” more times than anything else in all of the Gospels. In this story, Jesus isn’t stopping the storm or stilling the waves threatening to swamp the boat. Jesus is saying I AM. Do not be afraid. And the awestruck disciples want to take Jesus into the boat and yet suddenly they’ve arrived at their destination – or rather, the next stop on their spiritual journey (wherever they are). Perhaps the miracle is that the awestruck disciples realize that they have arrived safely through shortage and scarcity, through uncertainty and real danger. Perhaps what CS Lewis once wrote is true: “Miracles are a retelling in small letters of the very same story which is written across the whole world in letters too large for some of us to see.”
1. Charles Cousar quoted in the ucc.org’s
“Weekly Seeds” commentary for this Sunday’s lectionary.
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